Sex diary: her voluntary monogamy and a horny vibe from herself

To be honest, I want sex almost every time we meet. He just turns me on by default.

For him, sex matters and he needs it, just not that often, which I've gotten used to.

Today, though, I just wanted to cuddle, because I knew he was in a really bad mood, and my legs were aching after work.

Alas, my invitation to come over to my place was turned down, with lack of time as the excuse. Oh well, if not one way, then another 🙃

Yesterday I was so fucking exhausted from work that I didn't even want to think about sex.

Today I managed to catch my breath a little and even take care of my health. Even though both my boyfriend and I are going through not the best of times health-wise, sex did happen today.

In general, we often start sex with tickling or biting each other's sides. We crack up laughing, and then we fuck. Our classic. Today he tickled me so hard and pounced on me so suddenly that a couple of times I nearly peed myself, which he knew. That only egged him on. He took a bottle of water and started pouring it right onto my clitoris. Soon he wanted to make me squirt right away. I was already so turned on, just waiting for him to start. I squirt easily from rough fisting, and I like the roughness in the process, as if my vulva is really being pounded. A little roughness in sex turns me on.

It went on for a long time. I was screaming so much it sounded more like squealing, and he was growling and making all kinds of sounds that turned me on. I writhed like a snake and felt enormous pleasure. We polished it all off with quick sex, cuddled, and he went home.

I'm happy, and he seems to have cheered up a bit too, hooray! 🥳

Today I bought new jeans and finally felt sexy in everyday life.

I've been having trouble with that lately, since I've gained weight because of compulsive overeating, which I still can't seem to beat :(

I also recorded a sexy video message of myself unbuttoning my shirt and caressing my breasts. My partner was pleased and even sent back a pretty good reply. Although usually he either doesn't react to nudes at all (like I sent them at the wrong time) or reacts rather dryly.

We're not really having sex right now, even though my period has started, and in my case I want sex like crazy during this time. My boyfriend's temporary health problems are taking their toll, but he did agree to a blowjob. I really love sucking him off, especially since I started bringing him to orgasm that way.

Today was a calm morning, when we're not rushing anywhere and just lounge around together, have breakfast, play games.

I was squirming all around him with desire, but I'm patiently accepting these temporary difficulties. Still, I wouldn't say no to a quick orgasm. So while he was playing GTA, I went to the living room to masturbate.

For some reason I can't masturbate in front of my boyfriends; their presence distracts me from orgasm. I feel lighter and calmer now, the tension is gone from my body.

I work in fashion retail, and there's always been a shortage of attractive available men here. But at a couple of locations I have colleagues who interest me on a physical level.

Right now I'm voluntarily in a monogamous relationship (which surprises even me, is this love or something?), but every now and then I fantasise about sex with someone else.

And today one of my colleagues turned me on just by existing, reminding me of himself with a message in the work chat. He jokingly called me by my full name, and that turns me on even more...

Now I'm sitting here with my head in the sexual clouds. My period makes my desire x10, and I literally can't work....

Yesterday I again spent half the day with my beloved, and desire was literally eating me up from the inside. But I was happy just to lie under his wing and stroke his cheeks. Maybe that's even more important than everything else. I feel great love in these moments.

And today I went to the location where my work crush is. I dressed up specifically so he'd notice. And he wasn't there! Alas and alack, but the look was fucking amazing, really unusual and stylish)

I feel on top of the world, moving with confidence!

Yesterday was a mega shitty day. I was in a horrible mood, and there were reasons for it among a pile of life events: losing at a competition, and a hypocritical community that was just tearing me to pieces. My boyfriend was with me almost all day, but in the end he left (even though I needed him), putting it all down to being tired after a night of partying. Of course I was sad, but common sense broke through, and I let it all go.

But tonight we finally had proper, full-on sex, because he got to the doctor, calmed down, and his desire woke up again. It was that kind of sex when we don't rush, when we pick up speed, when we feel every movement. I love listening to the sound of my moans and breathing during sex. I often get turned on just by myself)) and 80% of the time I masturbate to my own nudes and masturbation videos. I really love my moans 🤭

We came to my parents' for the weekend. The long journey, serious and not-so-serious conversations about us, time with the folks: it all wears you out a bit. But my ovulation and his lust gave us no peace.

At night we had that kind of sex when you "need to be a little quieter", but that turns you on even more. You start listening to every knock of the bed and don't want it to be obvious to everyone. But it doesn't get in the way; it's a kind of variety: sex in your parents' house. If only it had been on their bed, then it'd be totally by the book.

And oh yes, there was one of my favourite moments, when I squeeze his head between my breasts (my breasts are small, so this doesn't always work) and he breathes in the scent of my body... arousal just +100